Excerpts from Ananda

November 11, 2010

How Do You Hear the Rainbirds Sing?

Windows into life. Isn't that what people would like? Indeed, to hear the "rainbirds"—to know when to prepare for weather that might affect their driving, walking, planting, harvesting, and so forth. And some indication of when they might take an umbrella and days when they could assuredly leave it at home.

There are such clues. But one often must have the right magnifying glass and appropriate world band radio frequency to hear "rainbirds[1]." Getting them is equivalent to earning some sort of award or medal, for they would surely be in the category of "gifts." Some people have strong, amazing powers of clairaudience and clairvoyance. And there are others who have the base but who need to work on fine-tuning.

Some, because of their stages of life footprints, feel more compelled to blast the airways about their gifts and make themselves known. Others are more subtle and quiet in their approach to such news.

Discovering One's Radio Bandwidth

Who are you? Which are you? Without a doubt, you are the silent one. Silent about your gifts, your spiritual and spirited voice. It is sometimes barely audible, yet you have so much to say, and others have so much to speak through you. But you keep it quiet, under wraps. Demurely, in a way, and without attention, is how you "play" or tune into and broadcast your radio frequency. For that suits your purpose of not being ready to use Facebook or Twitter or what other technological things people on the Earth now do with such relish.

Is it a times/timing thing? This sign of the times shows what? People who wish to face a computer screen than each other? Yet this upsets you. Do you think it is just you who feels this way? No. No. Not that this practice is inherently wrong. It is not. It has a solid purpose and, for some, the chance to see quite instantly news from across town or across state lines or countries might be very helpful. It is a viable and valid way to communicate as much as tribal meetings, quilting bees, and Quaker services were and still are.

These are all just different – unique to certain circumstances. Unique to life lessons being learned and lived —The technical aspects of Skype, where you can see and hear the other person – is another way of communicating. One is not wrong amidst the backdrop of all rights.

These are all just different.

So, why are we pounding this seemingly unimportant point? To perhaps show your resistance to one type of communication because of your fears, now a social "norm," as were Sweet 16 parties and Quinceaneras still are, or bachelor parties before a wedding, or walkabouts for cleansing. All are "norms" in their areas, but tied in with different customs.

Some people, very dependent now on this new social media – which you don't necessarily like or understand–have, as the base of their lessons, to reach out to many. You have already done that. It can be crossed off your list. You have also done yours in a much different way – through letters, visits, phone calls, telexes back in that time of technological breakthrough, or even of seeing representatives upon their return and talking with them.

But enter the new age of people who come in and have contracted to connect with a greater audience than before – during this lifetime. Social media is such a valuable tool for them. No matter that they cannot and do not understand your reasons not to engage in their fun and elixir. Perhaps just keep it simple: see this perspective and let them be.

 You feel your voice needs to be heard. The timidity that has crept into your persona fills you up, and your voice has become stifled because of it. Think back! Your voice became so fluid through your time of speeches and plays – both in high school times and, most recently, in the adult training world.

These were incredibly vibrant "life"-times for you, this lifetime. Do you not agree? Your voice was heard. You knew you could be of assistance whether in your channeling or the quiet readings given in parks or at kitchen tables and such. The spirit forces who talked through you were often so vocal, loud, and persistent – to get specific messages across. And it was their hope, particularly the one you call Percivel[2], to do something unique through teamwork.

They wanted to partner with you (all) and forge the astral plane bridges as some of the "baby steps" to spiritual communication. You led certain areas of all your lives through your channeled receivings vocally and on paper. What fell apart?

All of you had your lessons and lifetimes of other experiences in the forefront and at the surface of this life, which you could not see. You did not know how tangled and entangled you had been before. How much you "contracted" to do something about straightening it all out.

….now you feel edgy and upset because this is not something you want to "talk" about or face, correct? We understand but want you to imagine it is far more deep-seated than this lifetime.

What were the past times? You have already had experiences with some visions of lifetimes past in which you were "together." But this thought is uncomfortable because you experienced a rash of emotions, and you don't know what to do with them. They hurt (past tense). They make you squirm (present tense). Even when you met years ago when your child was young, you felt inferior to them – and as if you had to bend over backward just to gain their favor (as if they were in King and Queen position, and you needed to grovel to do so). This is a clue to the elements of past associations—something for one side to quit and some things for the other side to overcome.

But, dear one, you could not "hear" the Rainbirds! Succumbing, even as you did in this lifetime, is not necessarily helpful. Ignoring responsibility on their side was not helpful either.

This brings us to you today. Today—in your caged life. You are in a cage at work. No daylight, no windows in your office–you are quite encased. The tasks which you perform give you little voice. Yes, you have had ideas and opinions–most of them have been shot down, which further en-cages you and en-rages you, right?

Others before have said three women there have held belief in you at other times – fleeting, in one case, and more substantial in two other cases. They held belief in you, in your abilities, in your talents. They, in past lives, were welcoming, and you felt somewhat okay about yourself.

But you now wonder what feels like starvation of your spirit and why this has come to you, especially in light of learning about your child's feelings about adoption and your dismay with the topic in general. You question whether or not you can even stay there because the whole subject brings such unspeakable anguish to your soul.

Separate the ropes and ribbons –  

Rise above them. Rise above this. You have an inner and rich life of words, which to you holds much more intrigue and assistance than trying to keep ten plates spinning in the air, something you go into your workplace trying to do every day. You want all the plates spinning and none of them to fall or crash and shatter – meaning, you simply want to be liked by each and every one of them, all at the same time, all at the same spin and rotation.

Life is not like that. Life can sometimes be cruel-feeling, but that does not mean it is so. It appears or feels that way because perspective from the astral, casual, and Akashic planes are most often not accounted for. Things are dismissed by people who put up walls and guards.

"About Face" and Facing Your About 

Isn't it interesting that, in Facebook terms, the WALL is so important? But that is truly something indicative of relationships, isn't it? WALLS are put up. And things on Facebook land are put "on a wall." You wonder if this indicates that people can't show their true feelings because the walls are up. The WALL has events, things, likes, and dislikes, but not honest, core values—most frequently. Things stay on the walls. Sometimes these walls disrespect people. And when people try to get through the walls, it is not always easy.

To unfriend or to friend someone is a harsh term for sensitive types. It is crushing to you to be Unfriended—so you mostly don't care to be Friended at all. Make sense? You have not really counted on too many people in this life. And with a good many, you have been afraid to do so. Disappointments in the past have made you wary. Look at the true nature of your dilemma.

You wonder –

Why are those at work distant?

Why are you distant from yourself? That would be the best first question to work on.

You have not been able to look in the mirror for a very long time. You do not like what you see. And you don't like what you don't see, either. The level of confidence is where? The work of forgiveness is done how?

The anger and the belligerence of the talking heads in your mind have become very vocal. It's as if they are mouthing your words, but from your pores is a tempered sobriety of anguish: you hate. You have come to "hate" so many things. You say this word a great deal in your mind and through your clenched teeth. You mutter it; you scream it from inside your mind. (Do you notice this?)

But the message gets across:

You want to please others to have all plates spinning in your life. You feel you need to please others to keep all plates spinning in your life. And yet you have a quotient of anger and hatred for your circumstances. Your victimization is evident, even when you say nothing. Even when you aren't in the workplace. The spots where you sit at home and work are permeated with anger; the air around you is the same. The sadness, the depression in your house, is palpable. It is in your car–wherever you go. You have left invisible footprints and fingerprints and such.

Your cage is car-train-walk-office-walk-train-car-home.

You are a "caged bird." Why don't you sing? Where is your voice? You are swallowed up in negative notes on life. You have been the victim, which means you can't be life's GIVE-r or life's LIVE-r. You are intolerant and have become intolerable to some (hence, you don't like looking in the mirror), and you may not trust your persona anymore.

Is this hard to hear? We know it is. And yet we bring this with a basketful of love! It's in the open – we are the song of the Rainbirds, Dear One. It is not just caw, cawing we do: hear our high notes! And do look at yourself in the mirror.

We are not the only ones to nudge. This is a common practice or exercise for people who need to start to love again. It needs to start with you.

About your "facing" or non-facing.

Don't linger with your plate of morsels and tidbits, with crumbs of your timid self that you hold in hopes that others will peck from it. Watch out. Because some might just bite off your hands or feet if they feel they can eat a lot!! Do you not see how attitude impacts and affects others? The element of this is quite something. But you can know that there are past world and past life elements which have made you a victim before.

Problem is, you are carrying it in this life too long. You fight to love yourself because of the blueprint you made before. When you have had confidence and expressed it, it was often knocked out of you. People poo-pooed you. This has hurt. You have such imprinting that is as fresh and raw as two days ago. But the pattern has been set. And the pattern repeats and repeats and repeats.

How do you get out of the pattern? What do you do? It is time to start a new track run. You have been content to become so run down that your body, mind, and soul have wanted to leave the Earth soon just to get out of the mind images and hurt.

The stuffing has been knocked out of you.

You have been wearing the face that says "don't care," which is evident to others—your face, mind, words, your anguish all bespeak this attitude. You go into the City of Brotherly Love and can't muster up much "love" or even likefor most people there. Yet your co-workers are almost all from this area. This location is their home, their homeland. They are comfortable. But for you – well, it is not your place. But it is the identity and location of pretty much everyone else who works in that same office. Think about it. Your hate for the City transfers to them – to their childhood and their identified place – not knowingly or blatantly, but subtly and covertly.

Not every person has to make a sweeping difference and change the lives of thousands and millions of people on the planet. Depending upon where one is in terms of roles[3], chief features, and the like, there is an apt reason to tell you: it need not matter if you impact one more person. You already have impacted. You do every day. Everyone does every day – in some way. It may be that the groove is well set and the record is broken, so the needle keeps playing on the same L.P. groove, and it only sounds like static as the record goes round and round.

Now it is time to consider just how you impact people. Let's work on that for a while. Let's see if you can hear the "Rainbirds" call in that.

We come now to bring the voices of others in your group here. And to bring you some life reviews which might make a tremendous difference for you and to you.We will bring them to you over the next while.

Right now, digest this first.

Start to look in the mirror.

Why do you have so much self-hate?

Learn why.

Learn how to drop that mask.

Learn what holes have been filled up by the elements of your interaction with people every day. That is part of your dilemma–you beat yourself up for being unable to love anymore, yet you also try so hard to be something others want.

Be YOU! Not the "you" they wish you would be. You do not have to spin plates in the air. In fact, that self-effacing pleasing has little, if anything, to do with your life.

But you have made it your cause to work at spinning plates. And we have hoped you would tune the radio bandwidth to your frequency so that you could hear the "RAINBIRDS."

Your Cage Door

 A better tactic would be to decorate your plate and serve something to others from your dish. Put the plates of "friendship" and victim that you have worked at spinning where they belong:

in the cupboard.

Bring your plate to them when you need to feed them or even when you need to eat. Use your plate well. (Quite a different perspective, is it not?) This is not a three-ring or even a big top circus.

At least your life is not. Your life – your "contract" – is about life observations and life recordings (written or oral). It was to learn spiritual elements and leave the door of the cage open so you could flitter about, going in and out at will. Or perhaps even bringing some others into your cage and not holding them captive, but to live with the door open, that they can go in and out, at will—for that will make you sing.

To paraphrase a movie about to be released: your life is – well: "for white girls when the rainbow is too much…" you now look over the rainbow for your sometime, your magical place – in a someday.

Never dreaming or believing that you will find your pot of gold.

After death, you return to the spirit lands and traverse from one life to another. Yet if you were to go to the spirit world now, you would feel anguish for not having worked harder at this moment in your life's time. You have lived the struggle just as planned, but this is the time to tune in to the radio frequency and put on the 4D glasses because you also planned to overcome it!

Legacy

Whether anyone understands the words you write or whether all or some of this is published during your physical lifetime does not necessarily matter. What matters is that you leave the legacy of words.

You have felt that. You have felt it strongly. And you have also thought you don't have much time left, another point of remorse–because you have neither enjoyed this life (most of the time) nor done what you have come to do. So we encourage you and urge you to get on with the business of this.

Some elements of the writings will speak to some people. But won't to others. And none will speak to everyone–at the same time. And that is okay!

Writing something won't keep six-plus or so billion plates spinning in the air at once. As people live and die, read and reflect or later meditate on the words brought through you. As the world learns that social media is one aspect of life, but entrenching themselves in the "stuff" of the world is not the end all, then some of those people will be in the market for some mighty thought-provoking concepts. They will need some mighty pithy words at some point in their lives. And some of those words could surely come through you. (For they already have!)

Do you hear us? Do you understand us? You have been distant from people as much as they have been distant from you. Be not distant from your true self (what does that mean, you ask?), and you will be happier and close the gaps of distances between.

Yes, of course, things are partially the responsibility of others, too. They do not understand someone quite as sensitive or as different as you. As you work to be like them and can't be, they understand you less. So, the distance grows. Those at your workplace, for example, are not key players in your life. Should we repeat this line? Most of them are not key players in your life. Yes, they make a difference because right now, how you work to overcome certain things is key. But they will not matter to you in five or ten years. (Nearly a dozen years have passed since I am finally getting ready to assemble this for publication.)

And in so many ways, they don't matter at all. The main point of this moment is for you to refocus and regroup, not to be distant from yourself. Not the self you project now or protect now, but the voice of a million different spiritual wisdom splinters which you desperately want to coagulate into lifeblood to "save" people just like yourself from certain [spiritual] "death."

Does this ring true? You know "salvation" is inside work, but we understand that you want to assist others by using the words you have received and your insights. But you need to make sure they work first, right? That is what you need to do now—for you.

Spiritual surgeries in your past lives, which you accomplished with greatness and growth, are pretty unique and pretty lovely in their own right. (Surprised?)

Because you were not so comfortable as such a pronounced healing figure, this time, you have chosen to "heal" through ideas, words, understandings, and perspective through writing and perhaps speaking instead.

Just as earlier in your life, you needed healing simply to go on living – and certainly had some medical situations to overcome, you learned how powerful spiritual healing is.

Go forth. Make this a new day. It's okay to have a bit of fun in life, you know. It would be good for your soul.

You need not be so restrictive and straight-laced –

Ananda

7 here for you, 7/7

P.S. We also want to bring to you the knowledge that there are deep spiritual imprints for you that ignite your caution, your fear of opening up, or being too vocal about your spirituality and your gifts. When you had them in other lifetimes, and others found out about this, your body was put to death. Plain and simple. That even unconscious memory would make most react as you do.

But you have taken it to quite extremes in this life, to the point where you dislike yourself, dislike the core essence of you. That is something that you have not yet discovered (your essence). It would be best if you visited yourself in the spirit lands. We invite you to visit with us.

Think about the dream you had just this morning – about doing healing on someone at your workplace. What kind of feeling did that leave you with? We encourage you to reflect on it more. Do more serious meditation this week. Simply view the mirror of your soul. Your very pronounced idea about the Alice in Wonderland theme–beyond the looking glass is tied to your life message. Time to look at it again. And the musical theme that ties in with this[4]—

See yourself in the mirror of these others at your workplace to discover those core elements of yourself that you cannot look at and see right now. You stuff food down as a substitute for love. Your love of self, therefore, is not developed and cannot develop if you continue as is. Let's think beyond this. Go for the Qi–Chi Gung; you will notice a big difference.

This takes practice. You will not do it all or accomplish it in one day. The practice of this will make you stronger–in so many ways. It will also bring self-love instead of self-loathe. We want to bring you this point, in particular, so that you can solve the greatest of your anguish.

Love yourself over the next months at your workplace. It is good practice. It brings good life force. Then you will have the out you need. It may come more swiftly than you think but have patience if the wheels take a little longer to turn than you anticipate. It is all in the process of your timing and your growth.

Time to bless the life points. (Like the commercial: "Time to make the donuts.") Take time to do this every day, and you will have a better feeling and a better life than before.

Have you found your Ananda today?

November 14, 2010

Fortresses in the Mind

Each mind has caves and fields where the sunlight dapples past shadows or growing trees. There is a revolution when the fragment is left with a fleeting thought, unrealized hope, unfilled passion, and a sense of emptiness, and veiled betrayal.

What is this, actually?

Sometimes things from prior lifetimes come into one's present with a push and a force that is actual leftover grief, leftover sadness, or sorrow for unfulfilled anything. And this becomes a hard road to harrow. Given the linear elements of this life, it doesn't make sense. And yet—

And yet, it is such a subtle realization.

[We are “Ananda.”] The feminine spirit which you feel at this moment is a group of spiritual beings, much like a Michael group. We have been the forces of the staging on other planes, apart from the causal and apart from the Earth, certainly, or even the astral plane. Our work and legacy come from the heart of the Akashic plane.

We would not necessarily claim or decry that this (our) plane is "higher," for all planes coexist and feed one another tribute and inspiration, at the same time give opportunities for learning and providing lessons for learning, victories, and storms which lead to the need for conviction to do more on other planes, which leads us into the caverns—the fortresses of the minds—on one plane or another, often a cycle revisited—when one might least expect it.

We work to excavate the filaments in minds and bring forth realizations, and Aha! Epiphanies. Perhaps for individuals who wish to make sense of the events and patterns that form in their minds, the quiet, unspoken elements they want to bring up to another but might be afraid to do, just lie dormant. When the seedling of inspiration comes forth, there you are, awaiting its destined rooting in your life.

Sometimes the clouds of anger, or distilled fear, or what have you come and blow the seedling from its place in the soils and its place of rootedness, away and into other areas, stages, and ideas that do not have relevance for the elements you wished it to have.

But much like the continents on Earth, each has a different flavor and perhaps extremities of knowledge and worth, so, too, are the planes here. There is a hierarchical structure, yes, but it is meant neither as a place better or worse than nor a deterrent to those who live on or explore at one time or another.

You were "asked" recently whether the enticement was there for you to receive or channel or peek into the corners of this newly broached plane (to you) and whether that would keep you on the Earth for a bit more time rather than expiring in this body soon.

You are enticed. But unsure. How can we sweeten this thought for you? How can we tantalize you further? You are writing on the earth plane things about the earth plane–and further, explain how they couch into and comingle with the astral plane. And you are reading the warrior brethren of/from the causal plane [my guides, particularly Christopher and Percivel], which make quite a scientific approach, the understandings of the more "masculine" elements.

Instead, here come we, with a more soft and feminine—and perhaps a more humble approach—to bring elements of the Akashic gardens and "libraries," if you will. We feel this could be shared through you–the small one with a huge voice now getting louder on the Earth in curses' stead of blessings, and anger, 'stead of love. (You.)

We know you have a "voice" through your fingers, a voice of the imagination through which countless other words have brought inspiration and clarity to a relative handful of people. A place wherein the gardens of your 13 victors in the astral plane[5] have been discovered and let you know of their experiences. But there is so much more.

Are you the only one through whom we are speaking? No, of course not. It is like a destined work, role, or position: we cannot count on just one, for sometimes, the human-ness of body, mind, and soul on the physical Earth would chase us away. Would make us retreat and render us unable to grab hold of the spark through which our words could come and make sense to more masses—even if that takes some earth years.

Are you ahead of your time? Somewhat—mostly—yes.

Why do you hear physical sirens at this moment [as you are receiving]? Yes, there is reason to alert some in your neighborhood of fire or hospital transport. But this is also very much for you. Those sirens are for you to hear us. To hear the trumpets of hope blare forth from our world/plane to your world/plane.

Strange? Or do you think there are mysterious things that can be lifted from one's furrowed brow when this signpost appears? When one comes not to question or judge what is happening to them simply, the experience is also quite a revelation and revolution for new worlds to open. These three days find you in a tomb of sorts. Christmas time for you might be the same. Please be rested and get ready. For that is when you will, of necessity, hear more voices.

We suggest that you put up a tree – with lights and such. Even if you use no ornaments. For lights that give the glow from this year into the next, as you sit in quiet, in both morning and evening and introspect the delicious elements of spirit feast. This particular Christmas season is not about anything but your communion with us and ours with you. It is designed not as a lonely time but a time of inner world phenomenon. Please prepare yourself. Please listen for and hear our voices.

Reread some of the Michael teachings. But also read and underscore some of the tidbits from previous receivings or readings given through you, and enter your notes. After the New Year's entries, you will see how much easier it will be for you to return to working on the Rainbirds and Interchanges from Spirit materials. For you will work on it all again—at some point.

It is not about going to a different country to work for two years that appeals to you. It is about escaping from here—the mired look of your life now. You wish escape from the disappointments you feel in yourself, in your union, in your family creation, in your job-work.

Your “career,” as it were, is writing–plain and simple. Always has been, and always will be your LifeWork. You can fill in your days with many things that tempt you from that fulfillment and destiny. That is easy to do. But how downtrodden do you feel when you go to do a job and are apart from writing/receiving? When you turn away from the pinnacle of passion and work on something meaningless that has no bearing on the message from your voice?

Your voice has become loud as you talk to the spiritual beings around you. Without realizing it, you have lost your authentic voice and have adopted a pseudo-one instead. In fact, if you wish to think of it this way, you have become the puppet, and the ventriloquist (your job) uses up your air time. You have lost your standing, your being. (Not all, but some elements.)

Someone suggested that you exercise. And you have hit on a good practice, the right practice for you. It is not buns or abs of steel for which you are looking. You are looking to dance–to dance with life and through life. That could be your morning joy every day. And you can absolutely find the liberation and liberty to do this.

Go slow. Be purposeful in your movement, and you will become much more comfortable in your own skin and your true soul. It will be a Thanksgiving to remember in terms of purpose and perspective, of life purpose blueprinting.

Please stay alive and stay with us. We don't want to lose your form, your essence now. And please count on us. It is not the turkey roasting tips that you must diligently listen to and follow through from the food shows you love watching. Instead, it should be the clear and present beautification and blessings that you can learn from shows such as you saw today (Wayne Dyer)—that remind you of your purpose. That start to help your inner drum beat its song to a greater population. And that makes you feel alive empowered, and helps to strengthen your integrity.

The piffling things happening in your workplace are small indeed. Ride out the waves at this time. Ride through the storms that are coming. And you can know with assurance you have a mission, a "career" in R-A-D-I-O[6] transmission. Let's work together to bring more understanding to the general population. They need this force of goodness, this force of power, to be more alive themselves.

This work, job, is something to sustain you. You will be cared for after this, despite this rote work, and through the custody battle for your true soul's work (and your soul's true work).

We say to you: live.

You have the choice. Our choice is that you do. And you? What is it that you would choose? What do you choose? What might you choose? What will you choose?

Whether or not you get to create a brochure or a flyer or two does not matter. What matters is that your soul's fabric is no longer ripped by the divisions you fistulate by thinking negatively– about others, yourself, your worth, your value, and when you constantly and continually think of yourself as less than. This thought does nothing to help anyone.

Dance. Move. Get your energy flowing. Medicate and meditate through this gentler exercise, and you will be surprised at the turns your life takes.

This is a day when the souls of those of us here want to come to you, encourage you, and make your write-ings and make right your life force. Your life-task. Your destiny—which you chose! Know that we applaud you for choosing. You are unique – no matter what else. You have an inner essence that few have–-for all your humility, though, you have such a downtrodden sagging on your spiritual shoulders. Stand up. Stand tall. Stand straight and be alive. You are alive. Act as if we buoy you up, which will help you make way for the greater things to come. If you believe it, so shall it be.

Think it–grow internally rich from thinking, believing, and acting. Worry not about the details of your trifling duties. They are random and of no consequence, ultimately.

This plane is so vibrant and alive. Edgar [Cayce] stands here, in your mind's eye, but he is only one of many. You are not a sleeping prophet. Your spiritual path is different from his. So is your mate's.

 As for your squabbles with others—see the long history of this. Come Christmas, we will show you something of the timeline. Let it sit. Speak not of them. Speak not to them. Speak to your divinity.

That's the focus right now.

It is a lonely climb.

It gifts a motherlode of wealth, though.

A